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Here be updates on fannish goals and other ramblings. (●'◡'●) It just struck me that I wouldn't have had the wherewithal/courage to write and publish a post like this a year ago, so I'm pleased as a recovering lurker!

Fic talk
I finished a draft of my fic! The one I complained about it in my last post. It is currently a bit over 6k. One of my goals this month was to get it done, so that is fantastic. :) The quality is pretty acceptable. Only minor revisions left, I believe/hope. And then I can finally start on this other fic I promised to write for a friend! My other writing goal this month was to write a total of 7k words, which I haven't, but the milestone above matters more to me.

I've also been trying to read (and ergo comment) more on fic. I'm making progress on my bingo cards (see here for links), but haven't gotten a bingo yet. I feel like I could've read more. Still, some is better than none.

A great podcast, except...
I also finished listening to Midst (well, the first storyline anyway). It was great and I'm very satisfied, except. EXCEPT. I was let down by the episode where Weepe (scumbag extraordinare) has to watch his former business partner and beloved friend expire because of his actions. I was so excited to see him go to pieces, and to wallow in his unrequited worship for this woman who represents everything he believes he can't be.

Unfortunately, the actual episode felt rather stilted, sluggish, and forced, in my humble subjective opinion. So close, but not quite there. I hope there is good fic, though it is a tiny fandom. It's like, the one itch that feels terribly unscratched.

Where is the toxic fic? (cw: talk of dubcon)
I did fulfill my goal of reading some Beyond Evil fic on AO3. I'm afraid there were slim pickings since I seem to want something different from most others in the fandom. The main ship has so much toxic potential but the fics are kind of wholesome—often in a believable way, to be clear. I'm not criticizing their quality.

However, I just want for Juwon and Dongshik to regress and be terrible in new and interesting ways. I want hate sex, breakdowns, toxic vows, insane bids for attention, unhealthy repression and self-denial, dubcon fucking, a mix of dread and attraction, desperate misplaced efforts at atonement. They're both WEIRD and they should fuck weird. The disappointment I felt when I filtered for Dubious Content and only found 22 complete works was immeasurable, haha. And of those, only a handful actually applied to the ship.

Still on my Hello From the Magic Tavern bullshit
Loved the most recent episode. The premise? Immaculate. The hosts are basically reenacting Orpheus and Eurydice as they try to escape (pizza) hell, except they've got 3+ escapees holding onto a rope behind them like toddlers, and one of the most annoying recurring characters from the show keeps trying to tempt them into turning around to look at something cool. They nearly got defeated by a revolving door. It was great.